matthew 11:28

i love how simple and straightforward Jesus is.
"come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I wil give you rest. take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. for My yoke is easy and My burden is light."

i try so much in my human weakness and in my flesh to carry all these things when the Lord is clearly telling me, " Bethany, come on, just let me do it!!" i guess i like to act macho or something because ill just say, "No Lord, really, i think i can handle it. look at me, im all super-christian and stuff!"ha....NOT. being home in this different season and time of rest compared to China has been hard because ive been noticing so much more that needs prayer and then sub-consciously thinking that i can do it without relying on the holy spirit. which is not smart. theres so much need for the Lord in carp, and its really overwhelming trying to deal with it all alone. i just felt really burned out, like, "Lord, i dont know what to do, theres just too much for me to pray for and too much that needs to be fixed by You!" and then, in His tender patience and mercy(AHH THANK YOU LORD haha)He was just like"Um, bethany...MATTHEW 11:28!!!!!" and its that simple. just take off my burden, give it to the Lord, and take His. no if ands or buts. He's so good to us! i can't get over it, and i know i'll never EVER be able to understand it. and He didnt make prayer to overly burden and weigh us down. He wants us to give it to Him through prayer, because prayer changes things!!!! im so excited to see what He's going to do this year:)