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school!!!! ah!!! its becoming too much. thinking about all the credits i need...the things i need to do for colleges to want to accept me..blah. its too much. but, its all in the Lord's hands. its hard learning how to trust Him even with these kind of things.

worship

i love everything about it. i mean, i don't know, it's just so cool how God gave us the capability to worship Him through songs, and we dont need anything else to do it, we just need us and that's it. i mean, we add in instruments, and it's awesome, but i just love how God made it so simple. like, when youre full of joy, all you want to do is sing! haha i love the Lord so much! it's like worshipping is the only thing i can think of doing sometimes when im trying to express my love and adoration for Him. and how as a church body we can do it together! :)

"Praise the LORD! Praise God in His sanctuary; Praise Him in His mighty expanse. Praise Him for His mighty deeds; Praise Him according to His excellent greatness. Praise Him with trumpet sound; Praise Him with harp and lyre."
psalm 150:1-3

china!

my friend made a video about our trip to china, and since im too busy to make one myself, i thought id just put hers up:) its 7 minutes...but its worth it!

my epiphany of the morning...

"To me, the very least of all saints, this grace was given, to preach to the Gentiles the unfathomable riches of Christ, and to bring to light what is the administation of the mystery which for ages has been hidden in God who created all things; so that the manifold wisdom of God might be now made known through the church to the rulers and the authorities in the heavenly places." ephesians 3:8-10
Okay, so not only is it amazing the kind of grace God has towards Paul, to allow him to tell of this great mystery-what Jesus did for us and God's love for us-to the gentiles. But angels, good and bad, didn't understand it either until it was revealed through the church! I don't know, yesterday my mom and I had a long conversation about angels, demons, satan, evil, free will...and a lot more.. so, when I read that this morning, it made me really excited! It then brought me to.."it was reavealed to them that they were not serving themselves, but you, in theses things which now have seen anounced to you through those who preached the gospel to you by the Holy Spirit sent from heaven-things into which angels long to look." 1 peter 1:12
that's insanity! i mean, angels must've been going, "Lord, why did you even create these things?" for thousands and thousands of years until that mystery was revealed to them through us, the church! crazy. I just think it's so cool the nature God has, the longing to love us and be loved by us-companionship. That's why He made us! and it finally makes sense to all those angels, good and bad, why God would make such funny creatures like us... Ha..well, I don't even know if this is making any sense, but it all makes sense in my head and when I talk about it, writing it is a little harder. It's just so cool!
i love Jesus :)

matthew 11:28

i love how simple and straightforward Jesus is.
"come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I wil give you rest. take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. for My yoke is easy and My burden is light."

i try so much in my human weakness and in my flesh to carry all these things when the Lord is clearly telling me, " Bethany, come on, just let me do it!!" i guess i like to act macho or something because ill just say, "No Lord, really, i think i can handle it. look at me, im all super-christian and stuff!"ha....NOT. being home in this different season and time of rest compared to China has been hard because ive been noticing so much more that needs prayer and then sub-consciously thinking that i can do it without relying on the holy spirit. which is not smart. theres so much need for the Lord in carp, and its really overwhelming trying to deal with it all alone. i just felt really burned out, like, "Lord, i dont know what to do, theres just too much for me to pray for and too much that needs to be fixed by You!" and then, in His tender patience and mercy(AHH THANK YOU LORD haha)He was just like"Um, bethany...MATTHEW 11:28!!!!!" and its that simple. just take off my burden, give it to the Lord, and take His. no if ands or buts. He's so good to us! i can't get over it, and i know i'll never EVER be able to understand it. and He didnt make prayer to overly burden and weigh us down. He wants us to give it to Him through prayer, because prayer changes things!!!! im so excited to see what He's going to do this year:)

college..

i know i still have two years to figure it out, but i've been begininning to think of where id like to go for college...
its really overwhelming, so many choices.
"Your word is a lamp to my feet and light to my path"
ps 119:105
yup

me!

"One thing that I have asked from the Lord, that I shall seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord and to meditate in His temple...when You said, 'Seek My face,' my heart said to You, 'Your face, O Lord, I shall seek.'"
Psalm 27:4,8

:)